Thursday, November 13, 2008

Last night SUCKED

This will be a lot of complaining. Sorry.
Last night sucked. I made another mistake. I was going to head to bed for about 12 last night and had planned on taking some gravol to help me - as per the usual. Around 11:30 I heard Isabella crying upstairs - for longer than usual. Diletta has a nightly routine where she bathes, feeds and puts Isabella to bed...but she kept crying. So I go upstairs and the crying is getting louder as I get up the stairs...odd...I see Isabella in her crib crying without Diletta...so I rush into Diletta's room and turn on the light...no reaction...I go over to the bed and grab Diletta...she wakes up - but looks like DEATH. I go back to Isabella's room and pick her up. Back to Dil's room and turn off the light and tell her to go back to sleep until Isabella needs to feed, which Diletta has to do.
I go back down stairs and hang with Isabella so that Dil can sleep. Diletta comes down around 3am and I have a crazy ass head ache, nausea and stomach ache. But I know that Diletta needed some peaceful sleep so I pushed through it.
I took a gravol and went to bed. What a horrible night. I was up many times and tossing and turning with a crazy headache. It felt like I was wearing a hockey helmet that wast too tight and someone kept tightening it - I had never had a whole head headache. Freaking sucked. That and the nausea and stomach aches...then came bone pain in my legs. That too was a first. I got up at 9ish and felt the same...more drugs and back to bed. I woke up at 1pm feeling a bit better, but still with a headache, nausea, stomach ache and weird pain in my legs. Oh ya...and the tips of my fingers are numb.

Holy Complaining. I am sure this will get better in a few days. I would hate to feel what my symptoms would be like right after chemo without all the anti-nausea drugs. I don't know if I could do it.
Anyways, it will get better. Now for pictures:


Ciao.

1 comment:

KJR said...

Crap crap crap crap crap crap crap. I absolutely hate it that you are feeling so crappy and there is nothing anyone can do. I am not going to say stay strong, I am not going to say that it will get better, (although of course it will), I am not going to say anything like that because I am sure you are SICK of it. I am sure you are SICK of feeling SICK.

Those pictures are SSSOOOO cute of Isabella! What a doll.

Take care and you will endure! You will probably start to feel better soon. Hopefully. And don't worry about complaining. Go for it! Lord knows you deserve to!